Whenever I think of it, I think of us.
But eventually, I'll think of its result.
It’s been 4 months...
4 months since we parted...
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And I must admit, I’ve never felt so free and lively since those 8 months with you.
But during those 8 months, there were times where we could describe a day with a smile.
There were also times where it would be the total opposite.
And don’t forget the promises we made together...
Then came that very day...
And everything was put to a screeching halt.
You! It was you!
It all came to an end!
One which people would never want to go through...
An ending where both people were deeply hurt...
All burnt in bitterness!
You should learn from this.
Your actions costed you dearly...
Something that would be totally unforgivable.
And in that, it would leave an ugly scar upon us both!
You know what you've done!
And you know how much damage it has caused.
To tell you the truth, it’s beyond repair.
This scar you gave, it’s something not even time can heal.
And you still say you were upset over that ridiculous reason?!
How can you use that reason as an excuse?
And why have you done this?
To not only hurt me, but to also have yourself cut down too?
All those days and nights you've caused nothing but heart-ache!
Intentional or not...I pulled through!
Gradually I got over the pain by surrounding myself with family and close friends.
And having enshrouded myself within their circle, I was safeguarded from you!
For at times I felt I was being watched...
As time grew closer to me leaving home,
My thoughts of you were nothing but a phase.
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It was soon that I would rid myself from your presence.
You would be left with a lesson that will be engraved upon your mind.
To never take things for granted...
And as for that one month of hell...
I've survived your little mind-games!
It taught me something about you. As you should know:
You were never accepting, as in you were never sincere nor satisfied with me.
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Upon leaving home, I left my old-self there, as I would no longer need extra baggage on my mind.
Now this, the being who I am now...
One could say we are the new and improved person you never could have imagined.
But I haven't forgotten about the scar left behind.
That very day we parted, would live in the darkest part of my memories.
Now since its been 4 moths, I have found solace in a new place...
Where I can express who I truly am.
Where people can accept my foolishness and my cheerfulness
And its here where I feel at ease.
It is here...
DSS, where my reincarnated self has come to flourish!
DSS...is the home to Jeebus!
Because we have moved on!
And you should too!
And it is thanks to these people from DSS,
I have finally cut those rusty chains of yours that kept me from being my true self.
Love to me...
Is something that was never meant for me now.
From me to you: